I loved a boy.Gavin Lodge. He was sweet, gentle, kind and he made me feel alive. Letting him go was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. A hundred times I wished I had done things differently.A thousand times I wished I had gone with him. A million times I wished he had chosen me.I didn't. Neither did he. Now he's back. No longer a boy, but a man. I can't love him. It almost destroyed me once and I won't let that happen again. That should be the end of it. And maybe it would have been...If someone wasn't trying to kill me.